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Shownotes •

The story behind the quasi-cheating incident that ended the relationship • •

Why Ryan and Layla’s first kiss went horribly wrong • •

How to take full responsibility for your actions and impact on others • •

Why Ryan showed up at the Stanford campus in a full-on chicken costume • •

How radical love is different than self-sacrificing • •

What Ryan and Layla learned from opening their relationship • Bio Ryan Cheney is a therapist, seeker, and guide devoted to the process of inner transformation. Based in Austin, TX, he works with individuals and couples to uncover what stands in the way of lasting change – and how to meet those blocks with presence, compassion, and courage. His work is deeply rooted in Internal Family Systems and a profound curiosity about how people evolve. Before turning his focus inward, Ryan was the founder of Raaka Chocolate, a Brooklyn-based bean-to-bar company built on transparency and ethical sourcing. But his truest calling lies in the inner landscapes: the quiet, tender spaces where real healing happens. His path has been shaped by deep inquiry, spiritual practice, and a love for the moments when people reconnect with the truth of who they are. Ryan believes transformation doesn’t have to be a battle – it can be a remembering. He’s most alive when exploring the alchemy of change, the courage it requires, and the unexpected grace that can come when we stop striving and start listening. Timestamps 00:01:16 - Guest introduction 00:06:02 - Ryan shares how he and Layla met 00:07:35 - Going from small and scared to big and free 00:07:59 - Where Layla was at in her life when she met Ryan 00:11:48 - Where Ryan was at in his life when he met Layla 00:12:31 - Sign up for Layla’s newsletter at LaylaMartin.com 00:13:11 - Friendship turns into strong attraction 00:13:47 - Ryan describes he and Layla’s first kiss 00:16:20 - Why the sex didn’t initially work for Ryan 00:19:33 - Ryan learned to hold all parts of Layla 00:21:11 - Layla’s first experience with somatic therapy 00:23:00 - Layla credits Ryan for being deeply present for her healing journey 00:24:33 - Unlock your deepest passion inside The Tantric Mastermind for Couples 00:26:00 - Layla’s desire to find the real Tantra 00:27:19 - Ryan and Layla gave each other spiritual names 00:34:05 - Layla and Ryan discuss their experience with sexual healing 00:39:01 - Why we have to take full responsibility for our actions and impact on others 00:41:48 - How to be present with intensity and pain 00:41:57 - Discover MOOD™ Sex Magic 00:42:55 - Ryan and Layla drink MOOD SEX MAGIC 00:45:57 - The feedback Layla gave Ryan as their relationship ended 00:48:17 - Layla healed and opened her sexuality before healing and opening her heart 00:51:15 - Ryan shares what he learned from the end of the relationship 00:54:55 - Layla shares one of her favorite stories about Ryan 00:56:08 - How radical love is different than self-sacrificing 01:02:18 - Discover your most masculine confidence and presence with Men’s Sexual Mastery 01:03:59 - Layla and Ryan share their experience with an open relationship 01:09:10 - Ryan shares what signaled the end for him 01:17:38 - What Layla learned from the end of the relationship 01:19:20 - What Ryan learned from the relationship 01:21:08 - One of the saddest parts of trauma 01:24:32 - Ryan’s favorite parts of Layla from their relationship 01:27:41 - Conclusion