“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Growing up in a household full of both love and violence in Mississippi, Kiese Laymon struggles with generational trauma, career success, and addiction before finally facing the silences of his past.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

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